Meaningless

Ecclesiastes 2:24 A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, 25 for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment? 26 To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. (NIV)

Today is a Gift.

I've been obsessing lately. Mostly about the future, but even this past week, I've been dwelling in the past. Heavily in the past. It brings up all sorts of emotions I forgot I had. Networking sites don't help any, either. Keeping up with people after I have moved past that part of my life is difficult for me. Even today, I made an effort to dredge up emotions from a past relationship, and it doesn't make me feel better to process through them. What should I do?

I've always had the unfortunate nature to keep looking ahead. For the past year, I have been involved with a babywearing forum: learning about, buying, and selling baby wraps. It has been a fun distraction, but I haven't been in the present. Being a part of the babywearing community only makes me long to be a mother, and it is not time for that yet. I need to take a step back from this.

I'm hoping that choosing to focus on other areas of my life will help--Being in the present, in the now, making the most of where I am--This is where I belong right now. Enough of the old memories, relationships, future hopes and dreams: Be here. Now.